I'm feeling a bit out of sorts.
Some people I really respect are coming out against adoption. No matter what.
I don't understand.
I don't regret my choice.
I miss my daughter. I know my daughter misses me. I feel bad about moving so far away that I can only see her once a year.
But I don't regret my choice.
I don't subscribe to the view that adoption is so harmful that it should no longer be allowed.
For that reason, I have been afraid to speak.
I feel like there are no more people that can acknowledge adoption loss yet still support the choice.
I find myself cringing at the new job one of my adoption mom friends got. She's going to be helping hopeful parents create their profiles. But I also cringe at the articles and statements other friends are making that adoption should be abolished.
I do think the system is corrupted. I do think things need to change. I do think some mothers would be able to parent if given more support. But I'm still glad I had the choice.
I recognize that my daughter will have some scars related to her adoption. I know I do. But I don't think I should have been forced to parent. I don't think I should have been given a choice only between abortion and parenting.
I'm pro-choice. Had adoption not been an available option, I would have aborted. Is that really a better solution? Is my daughter really going to be harmed so much that she should never have been born?
Answer me that, internet.
I feel so alone.